Yesturday i went white water rafting for the 2nd time in my life.  Although, yesturday was a lot more fun, because the first time i went i did the lower gorge, which really doesn't have any rocks or anything else, it's more of just a float trip.  But yesturday we went on the Race Course, which was fun, seeing as how there was tons of excitement, tons of rocks to run into, and even an opportunity to fall out of the raft once, lol.  Karen and I fell out of the raft, while scott and erica were able to stay on the raft.  Although, haha, a little while later, Karen was able to drag erica into the water, haha.  I was going to help her, but my feet got stuck in the mud, lol.  That mud on the Rio Grande is like quick sand, it's pretty cool, but pretty inconvienent at the same time, plus it smells a little.  Of course, there are a few things that irritated me on the trip, lol, and that if those things didn't happen, the trip would have probably been a little better.  First of all, Scott and Karen invited me and a whole bunch of people, then i invited Erica because she had never been rafting before, and i thought she'd have fun.  Well, scott never told the other people he invited where to meet him, and he didn't even know where their tents were!  I don't know, i guess usually on trips such as these i try to be a little bit more organized.  So we ended up leaving late...  Don't get me wrong, I like Karen and Scott, they are pretty good friends, i was just a little annoyed, but that sure doesn't make me like them any less!:).  I had looked up times on the internet the night before, the meeting times of the rafting companies, they were 9:30am and 1:30pm.  However, no one really believed me or took me seriously until it was too late.  On our way to toas, we stopped in Angel fire, which i didn't think would be a big deal, figured it would be a quick thing, but no, it wasn't, we waited there for almost an hour.  We found out later that the reason it took so long was because Karen needed to get a new bank account with bank of america, because apparently they had shut her bank account down.  Which was fine, but we were already running a little late as it was for the "normal" last rafting time.  I had my heart set on rafting, and honestly didn't think we were going to be able to go.  But if it were me, and i knew people were for one, waiting in the car, and for two, waiting to go somewhere, if i knew it would be awhile, i would have just came back out to the car and left, you know?  Then, there's tons of traffic in toas like always, and Karen's blood sugar apparently got low, so she asked "can we stop at McDonalds to get some sugar packets?"  Well, we were on our way to subway, can't get sugar packets there?  Instead we got stuck in traffic for awhle, to find out later that she was really wanting mcdonalds.  Which is where we ate dinner, which didn't really bother me, i like mcdonalds.  If we could have gotten an earlier start, we could have gone rafting, and then floating, which was the original plan, but of course didn't happen.  Instead we spent 2 hours waiting on a rafting trip, lol, we got there at 3 something i guess?  And then we weren't going to leave until 5, there's so many other things that we could have been doing.  No one really wanted to sit there that long, however, they were working on road construction, so it took quite awhile to get there in the first place, so we figured we didn't really have enough time to do anything else, or go anywhere else, so we kind of just sat there.  But overall, this was a very fun trip.  I had a blast, i think the best part still was Karen pulling Erica in the water, HAHAHA, sorry Erica, but you have to admit that was pretty funny, hehe.  Oh, and our tour guide wasn't bad looking either, and he was actually pretty funny.  He was the main person in charge of the rafting company.

Current Mood: drained

So, it's been awhile since my last post, but i figured i'd post something, haha, sounds like i'm making a confession or something, lol.  But anyway...i'm really really REALLY ready to get back to school.  I'm really not happy here, and the fact that there is something going on at work that kind of makes me feel uncomfortable doesn't really help.  One of the guys that i work with keeps saying sexual things to me, and trying to hint stuff, and it really makes me feel uncomfortable, he does this to me every working day.  Then some other stuff that is really digging into my skin.  Then here at Philmont my scheduale is a lot different than everyone elses so i feel lonely.  They already make there plans when i'm not around, so i'm hardly ever really included, which really sucks.  I thought it was going to be fun all of my friends coming here from school, i thought we could hang out, and i'd already have friends, just thought it would be a good summer, it hasn't been.  Those friends i seem to be moving farther and farther from every day.  I just feel extremely lonely.  I want to cry..and yell..but i know in all actuality, that would do absolutely no good, it would just waste a lot of energy that i haven't had lately in the first place. 

Current Mood: blah

So, the night of July 4th started off with the confusion on if we were even going to go to Raton or not to see fireworks.  You see, my friend Elizabeth had a really bad headache, and she wasn't sure if she was going to go, but later decided she was going to.  Then the next thing we had to deal with.  How on earth were we going to get 6 people to fit into a Ford Focus?  There were six of us, Elizabeth, Betty, Catherine, Cozy, John, and I.  So, the way we did it was this; Betty drove, Elizabeth sat in the passengers seat, i was in the middle, John sat on my left, and cozy on my right.  Then Catherine sat between the back of Elizabeth's seat and cozy's legs on the floor.  It was very interesting, and Catherine was a good sport.  So then, sitting like this we went the 41 miles to Raton.  Once we got there, we needed to make the decision on where we were going to eat.  we saw a bunch of places, but then we just decided, alright, pizza hut is right there, we passed everything else, that is where we were going to eat, so we all agreed.  The pizza hut was very short handed because it was the 4th of July, so we had to sit about an hour to wait for our food.  While we were sitting there talking, all the sudden this couple comes in.  The women was dressed nicely, she had just apparently won rodeo queen for colfax county.  But, her boyfriend, well, he wasn't dressed as well.  He had a large cowboy hat shaped like a taco, and then he had his pants tucked into his boots.  We tried so hard to not laugh out loud to the point that we were almost crying, then they left because it was so busy, and decided to eat somewhere else.  Then, there was this one man, that came in and went straight to the female restroom.  He was in there for a long time and we were beginning to wonder if he was from Trinidad.  After being at pizza hut for almost two hours, we were finished eating,got our tickets, and were ready to go.  We decided since we still had awhile until the fireworks were going to start, we went to K Mart and hung in there for awhile.  We saw one of my good friends Chelsey, and her family in the parking lot.  Her face was classic when she saw all of us come out of one car, HAHA, wish i would have had a camera!:)  They drove off and we decided to go into the store.  We ended up going into the kids section and attacking John with swords.  Then the others left, and it was just john and i, i took his hat off and started running, although, he didn't chase me, so i gave it back, and then he grabbed a sword and we had a sword fight.  Then we decided to go out to the car and head off to the park where there were fireworks.  The fireworks display had to be one of the best i've ever seen, well, other than at Disneyland.  It was fun.  Then we dropped Cozy off at her friends, and all had a comfortable seat on the way back.  We returned at about 11:00 PM.

Current Mood: content

Happy 4th of July.  This summer is going to be a little different for me.  Every summer that i've been at Philmont I have gone to the litle rodeo and dance on the 3rd, and then to Eagle Nest to see fireworks on the first.  Well, yesturday i hung out with some friends in my tent.  Tonight i'm going to go to Raton with some friends to see fireworks.  The day today overall has been alright.  I have still yet to talk to one of my good friends Chelsey to tell her about the trip from this past weekend.  When she asked about it a few days ago...i didn't feel like talking about it.  Some stuff happened and i was already upset, so i felt that if i was to tell her about it..i'd start to cry, so i didn't.  I usually get to talk to her during lunch hour..but i don't think she was feeling well today, or she was tired, because she was laying down on her bed so i didn't want to bother her.  I was going to go see my friend Erica today..but i'm a bit on the tired side and don't really feel like walking all the way to the other side of camp.  It's not really that far..but when you do it as often as i do, it gets old real fast.  Plus, one of my friends CiCi is here, and i figured i'd go to south tent city and see her.  I hope everyone is having a great 4th of July!:) 

Current Mood: blah

Hello Everyone!  This is my first entry on LJ, after being bugged to join for so long i figured i'd join, so here I am.  I work at Philmont Scout Ranch as a security officer, however, i'm more like a police officer.  My job is hard because Philmont is HUGE.  Therefore i work pretty much 7 days a week, 24 hours a day.  I'm always on call.  I came out here with some friends, although, our scheduale's are so different, so i never see them.  I've made a few new friends, which is awesome, but i seem to be moving mroe away from the old...which hurts quite a bit.  Lately i've been very depressed, and i'm just ready to start school.  I'm a senior at Eastern New Mexico University.  I left Philmont to go to Albuquerque this past weekend.  When my friend Erica and I were coming back, i really realised how miserable i was here.  The closer we got to Philmont...the more upset i got.  I actually started to cry when we were about 30 minutes away.  It's sad, seeing as how this is my third summer at Philmont..and i've always loved it here, but this job is horrible.  Plus, since i never really see my friends, i feel alone.  With me, being as social as i am, is not something i enjoy too much.  I try making new friends...but i work at one side of camp, and live at the other, so it makes it extremely hard.  I just can't wait until this summer is over and my life can get back to normal again.

Current Mood: depressed